Das Leben

2019 was so full of hatred, anger and bitterness that I almost couldn't afford to stay calm and be patient all the time. This also leads me to cut off a couple of relationships. See, when you fill yourself with negative energy, you are not capable to neutralize them anymore when people throwing them at you. Instead, the negative energy within you will either be charged or triggered by those toxic people. I couldn't deal with the source of pain that caused me anger, hatred and bitterness at the moment no matter how hard I try. But I couldn't afford myself to stay angry all the time. So, I distant myself from them. Those who are dishonest hypocrites, condescending, manipulative and sarcastic jerks. I try to ignore the sarcasm, the lie and the acting by pretending I don't understand or know nothing about it. But here's the thing: I always know. I just don't really care. They don't hurt me but I don't want their toxic words and behavior to fuel the fire I