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-Berjuang-

Setahun kini berlalu lagi,..
musim sejuk bertukar ganti,..
tapi,aku tetap di sini..
dalam kesamaran tanpa cahaya terang,..

seusai solat,..
tangan yang tertadah berharap agar dipandang,..
suara yang meminta berharap agar didengar,..
betapa kini pandanganku terhijab kerna dosa yang membuak,,.
tanpa disusuli dengan taubat..
aku menginjak dewasa,..
pembesaran yang tak pernahku minta,..
betapa ku berharap agar dapat menahan masa,..
agar aku kekal dalam masa yang aku bahgia,...

tak pernah aku pinta akan kesusahan..
apatah lagi kekecewaan,..
sedariku menunggu dalam persimpangan jalan,..
berharap agar ada sedikit petunjuk,..
jalan mana yang harusku lalu,,..

pada jalan yang berliku,..
moga Allah permudahkan langkahku,..
jika kesusahan mendatang,..
moga Allah tabahkan hatiku,..
pada hati yang gelisah,..
moga Allah curahkan ketenangan,..
pada jiwa yang kusut,..
moga rahmatNya sentiasa menaungiku,..
pada daya yang rapuh,
moga Allah kuatkan keyakinan,..
 pada hati yang kelam,..
moga sinar petunjuk dan kasihNya sentiasa bersamaku,..
pada keputusan yang mengecewakan hati,..
aku mohon hati yang Redha dengan ketentuan Illahi..

puas aku rebah kala melangkah,..
untuk berlari kembali ke garisan penamat tidak mudah,..
luka berdarah sana sini...
tapi aku mampu untuk teruskan lagi,..
mungkin dengan merangkak..
mungkin juga menggunakan lutut..
saat tersungkur di medan perang,..
aku tetap berjuang..
bersama mereka yang satu matlamat denganku...
kerna mati bukan satu ancaman..
Syahid itulah yang kami dambakan..
lambat atau cepat..
masa yang menetukan..
takdirku menunggu di penghujung garisan..
aku dalam perlumbaan..
sebuah perlumbaan mengejar kejayaan..
kejayaan menggenggam cinta Tuhan..

~choosing Allah in your life will compelete y0ur life..

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