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Amir



'Bushhhhh'

Satu penumbuk hinggap di muka Ahmad. Ahmad diam.Perlahan darah yang mengalir disapu.
Dia tunduk ke lantai.

'Klangggg'
Habis penyapu,mop,baldi bersepah dalam dorm.
Zain pungut dan letak balik ke sudut selepas membersihkan dormnya.

'Kau!Jangan makan!'
Farid senyum kelat menerima arahan.Lapar.Tapi,dia takut hendak ke kantin.

'Semua!Jangan kawan dengan dia!'
Merah mata Sayed.Marah.Renungan Kau-Akan-Menyesal- segera dihantar.

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"Mel,aku nak cakap siket"

"Apehal?"

"Kau.Apasal kau layan orang macam tu?"

"Kau nak aku layan kau macam diorang ke?"

"Mel,you are my friend.Aku taknak orang benci kau"

"If being hated are the way to get people understand and accept pain,I with pleasure accept my destiny"

"Mel,takde jalan lain ke?"

"I want them to feel pain,to think about pain,to accept pain,to know pain."

"Mel,I know what you've been through but......"

Kolar baju Faiz dipegang.

"Kau.Kau tak paham ke? People would not appreciate what they have!"

Faiz ditolak ke belakang.Dia bangun dan berlalu pergi.

"Bukan semua macam kau,Mel!!!"

Gema jeritan mengekori Amir.Amir tersenyum sinis.

"Ya,Faiz.Bukan semua macam aku."Hanya dia yang dengar jawapan tu.

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Amir!Amir!Amir!

Sorakan bergema di sudut kanan dewan.

Sayed!Sayed!Sayed!

"Kau?Nak cabar aku?Ada berani?Kau jangan tempah nahas.Aku Amir!"
Amir duduk tenang memeluk tubuh.Mata menangkap kehijauan padang.Dia membelakangkan Sayed

Heh."Aku Sayed!"

"Mel,jangan la Mel.Kau Ketua Pengawas kan."

"Kau apehal Sayed?Sunyi?"

Hiarghhhh.

Sepi.Terlopong.Kagum.

Amir!Amir!Amir!.Sorakan kembali lagi.

Huhh.Sayed terjebam ke tanah.Kilat sungguh pergerakan Amir.Refleksnya hebat.

"Aku tanya.Kau apehal?Sunyi?"

"Bangang ko Amir!"

Sekali lagi,Amir menidakkan cubaan Sayed yang ingin menyerangnya.

"Baru kau tahu apa tu sunyi.Habis,yang kau layan orang macam sampah apasal?Kau ingat kitorang tin?Berisi kau ambil,kosong kau buang."

"Aku.............."

"Aku apa?Say it Sayed!What?Aku Sayed?"

Amir berjalan mendekati Sayed yang terduduk.Rapat.Mulut ke telinga.

"You've one last chance to remend it.And it's now.Wrong words,wrong choices,wrong future"

Amir berpusing dan meninggalkan padang.Jemaah mula bersurai mengikut Amir.

"Aku mintak maaf kat semua.Especially,Jamil.Aku mintak maaf sebab layan korang dengan teruk.Aku sedar duit takleh beli kawan-kawan,kebahagiaan.Aku betul-betul mintak maaf.Aku menyesal."

Langkah mereka terhenti.Mereka berpusing dan semua tersenyum.Riuh padang dengan tepukan gemuruh.Amir terus berjalan.Tersenyum.Sambung kerja.



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