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A Letter To Future Me


Dear (insert your nickname),

I'm writing this for the future me so that I will remember what I  must remember.

First, congratulations for all the glory and success that you achieve and receive. It has been an honor to stand and proud of being who you wanted to be. You know you really don't deserve anything from that. All credits go to your mom and others who constantly pray good things for you. Remember you almost had your soul burst because you don't want to study but you have to study? Well, at least you keep studying because if not you might regret it.

Dear myself,

As we go on, please remember where we come from. Please remember the path that we've traveled. Please remember the good pure child once who you were. Because that's where the keys lie. This dunya is not worth to chase. This dunya is not worth it for you to sacrifice. Everything you have, everything you ever want, everything you got or belong, they are not yours.

I know that you struggle to keep up with the good that you sometimes fall and choose the wrong road. But I also know that there's always the good in yourself that keep telling you, "please this is just so wrong. Please this is not who you are. Please." So listen to the good. And if one day you couldn't keep up with the beats, it's ok. We're not Prophet, nor Angels. We're human who when we sinned but immediately repent, Allah will forgive. So turn back to Him, not only when you fall, but every second you breathe.

Dear (insert your nickname),

When you're abroad, you might feel lonely. And you always wanted to be alone. I keep telling you to fear not the pain. But being who you are who face such a long life story worth knowing what's right or wrong, you will always have that fear, that little doubt. You're afraid that they might leave again. I couldn't blame you. And I couldn't assure you that the pain worth it. Because the pain that hurts takes time to heal.

But I must ask you to give them a chance. I must ask you to really build the courage once again. I must ask you to be who you were once, that little girl who was caring enough about others, who offered her kindness to anyone and who keep doing good no matter what. Find that soul again and you shall live in peace if not in this world, the other next world.

I'm sorry, I couldn't give my words that everything will go well. I don't even know about the future. I couldn't say that we could take the pain now only because we have gone through it so many times. I couldn't say next time it happens, they won't hurt. But you see, we did it in the past. We survive.  We endure and we survive. So if the times come, remember to have patience, perseverance and faith. Faith gives us hope. And faith is the reason why we still live and walk on this earth.

Dear myself,

I only know I love you when I wrote this. I really hope that you'll survive out there. I really hope you turn out to be a good person and leave all the nasty things behind. I really hope that you muss not to experience such a bad way only to learn valuable lessons. I really hope that Allah The Almighty chooses you to be among who He loves. I really hope that you'll keep struggling to memorize Al-Quran. I really hope you will live on the school's timetable.

I really hope you will give something good for the Ummah. I really hope you will and still remember those childish dreams but kind and purely enough we once had in our hearts. I really hope that you can be good to your family especially our mom. I really hope you won't forget what mom really wants. I really hope that you won't take your eyes off your goals.

Dear (insert your full name),

Be brave and take all the risk. Explore and take all the chances that were given. You might fall, you might hurt, but then take a step and move on. We'll rest when the time comes. Give all your best and fight with all your might. Live with the love you worth fighting for. Surround yourself with good environments. And if there's no such surrounding, you build it yourself.

Remember all the loves they have for you. Remember all the hopes they put on you. Remember all the faith they have on you. Make them proud. Make them smile. Make your effort worth. And remember to keep Allah in your heart forever.

Dear me,

Last but not less, let's promise each other to stay strong. Keep smiling even when the storms bother. And let's promise to see each other in Jannah. Well, you can bring along mak, adik, kakak, ayah only if you truly memorize and work really hard to memorize and remember Al-Quran. C'mmon, we done once, we can!

mafz454
14 March 2015
22:22

Comments

  1. Anonymous18 March 2015 at 20:19

    Jangan berhenti berlari !!
    Keep strong and fly high!

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