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Angka


Aku tuntun langkah
ke garisan pemisah,
antara semalam dan esok.

bukan akhirnya lagi,
cuma bertambah.

aku dimamah masa
angka membesar seiring cita.

takkan selamanya begini,
pasti berakhir jua.

angka berlari meninggalkan kartun,
angka menjemput remaja hampir,
angka menunggu dewasa menegur,

namun,
mati tetap melambai tak tahu.

aku kejar hadaf hidup,
antara sementara dan kekal.
antara permulaan dan penghabisan.

apa aku buru,
pun aku tidak pasti.

aku terbang mengikut nur yang bersimpang,
yang terkadang aku butakan hati.

Tuhan,aku rindu lambaian kelmarin.
yang aku endahkan.

bila angka mengetuk,

aku sedar aku ingin berjalan,
memeluk setiap ilmu,
agar kolong kosong ini terisi cahaya.

biar aku teruskan langkah,
bertemankan ragu dan ingin tahu.




P/S: For all those who celebrate their birthday, especially my mom and orang di Mu'tah, juga tak lupa that kid in Intec, the reminder in UIA and USIM and ex-Smapl, i simply pray that May Allah forgives and protects all of you every seconds. 

well, His bless is limitless right.. :)
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